It's been a while since my last post and it's quite late. I was having some trouble falling asleep mainly because have alot on my mind at the moment. Since my last blog which was probably a month ago I've done quite alot.

Where I left off I wasn't in the best mood. It was just after i left my grandma at the hospital and was heading home. I was in the most miserable/depressed mood then after their 'decision'. Well ever since then my family changed their mind. and she's still with us but... in the same stable condition as she was when she was admitted into hospital. My family keep telling me to expect the worst but i don't really know what to think anymore. But this was a miracle. Once again... I'd like to thank those who prayed for my grandma it was much appreciated. I haven't seen her since then and have no clue when I'll see her next. I haven't heard much since I left.

Since then I've had Thirst Camp... which went amazingly well. I did something I never would do and that is to talk infront of an audience. My public speaking isn't the best actually it's one of my worst aspects, but I did it anyway and i'm glad i did it. It got me over my shyness and i suffer from severe shyness.. I could really God touching everyone during the camp. As a leader I also got to see one of my group members grow during the 4 days. It must have been one of my proudest moments.. =D

I've been up since 6am this morning and now it's about  2am... the reason why i was up so late was because of my first day of uni for semester 2. I had my first lecture at 8:30am it was so hard to make my way to uni because i hadn't slept enough the might before. I had business information systems and management classes today. They were both so dull and boring. Hopfully it'll get better as the weeks go on.

To end this up.. just some lyrics

Before I fall too fast

Kiss me quick

But make it last

So I can see how badly this will hurt me

When you say goodbye

Keep it sweet

Keep it slow

Let the future pass and don’t let go

But tonight I could fall too soon into the beautiful moon light

But you’re so hypnotising

You’ve got me laughing when I sing

You’ve got me smiling in my sleep

And I can see this unravelling

Your love is where I’m falling

But please don’t catch me

See this heart won’t settle down

Like a child running scared from a clown

I’m terrified of what you do

My stomach screams just when I look at you

Run far away so I can breathe

Even though you’re far from suffocating me

I can’t set my hopes too high cause every hello ends with a goodbye

But you’re so hypnotising

You’ve got me laughing when I sing

You’ve got me smiling in my sleep

And I can see this unravelling

Your love is where I’m falling

But please don’t catch me

So now you see

Why I’m scared

I can’t open up my heart without a care

But here I go

It’s what I feel

And for the first time in my life I know it’s real

But you’re so hypnotising

You’ve got me laughing when I sing

You’ve got me smiling in my sleep

And I can see this unravelling

Your love is where I’m falling

But please don’t catch me

If this is love then please don’t break me

I’m giving up so just catch me

Catch Me - Demi Lovato

Holidays are already here and 5 weeks of them too. But the last week has been full on and busy, so busy i haven't been home for the last couple days and the only reason i am at home was to shower and sleep. Since the last time i blogged things have gotten worse for grandma and the doctors think she may have a short time. A very sad thought and right at this time where camp plans are taking action. I wasn't going go to Brisbane until the end of camp which is now on July 1st - 4th. But since theres talk of getting rid of her feeding tube i'm leaving on tuesday. I'm finding myself to be an emotional wreck right now. It may not me quite visible. Every night i do find myself crying at the end of the day with everything thats going on. I maybe unsocial but thats only because i don't really want to talk much about anything, so if i'm around and i'm not talking don't take it to heart.

But thank you to everyone who's been praying and everyones concern for my family.